Choas

My husband has been gone for a couple of months on a trip for his job. Typically there is a rule for when he is on these trips and that is that if anything is going to go wrong, or if anything is on the verge of breaking, it will do so once he is out of the house. This has always been a true statement and in the past its never really bid a huge deal for me to handle. For some reason this time it has felt like I have been on a sinking ship since the day he left, with only a bucket to try to keep the water out of the boat so I can stay afloat. Some of the things that have gone on are the basement flooding, (which is were both my boys rooms are), that garage flooded, the water softner system had to be cleaned out, had to re-work the plumping for the sump pump, and the dishwasher went out. Typically I can handle stuff like this because being a military spouse you find yourself surrounded by military families that are willing to step up and help out, but for us this assignment is different because we are surrounded by civilians. Now that is not to say that civilians do not help each other out, it is just that with the military there is an instant bond and friendship and I have not been able to mimic that since moving to our current home. Anyway over the past two months I have felt as if the only things I could offer family and friends was complaint after complaint. I do not like being upset all the time because I feel overwhelmed, nor do I enjoy dragging others into my chaos. Well God has decided to step in and give me a reality check. Yesterday I received both good news and tragic news. Here I was complaining about how hard it is to find a job that fits my hours, (because I am a SAHM) and how my life sucked when the owners of my kids TaeKwonDo place offered me a job. I also received a phone call that my step brothers girlfriend had passed away that morning in her sleep. On one hand I was celebrating that finally things were looking up but on the other hand I was sad that this happened to R. Here I have been complaining over the past month about how my life was so chaotic but at least I have been alive the last month to do that. I should be thankful everyday that I wake up in the morning and have another day of life. We take for granted this life we are blessed with and we spend so much of it caught up in negativity and self pity when really what we need to do is step outside, breath in the air, and just be happy being alive. So I have to replace floors in the basement, I have to replace the dishwasher, I have to get my hands dirty fixing a toilet, but so what these things build character and in the big picture of life those things are insignificant. So in honer of Sedora today I am just going to have a little bit of fun and remember to say thanks for another day of my life.

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