Okay I know I said I would get back to you sooner but this vacation to come home has brought so much that its hard to find the words to explain it all. I have loved this trip home because I have been able to renew old friendships, catch up on family members, and have a blast from the past walk back into my life. It has been an adventure all in its own of which I never expected. I love being back with the kids because they bring such a joy and light to my life that when they are away is always missing. I do plan on getting on here soon (more than likely it will be when I get home) because there is so much in my head that I just need to get out. So for now here is a list of things to come.

Update on SIL and her kiddos

Update on Inlaws and about my new lense

Update on parents divorce

Update on birth father and family

Update on C coming back into the picture

Update on move to new house

Update on friends that I have missed and cannot wait to only be 7 hours from

I think that is really all for now… I will address all of those things and then deal with any new ones. So until then hope all is well with you.

see you soon

So I know that alot has happened since the last time I posted from the death of my beloved grandmother to me currently being in Colorado for a vacation. Right now I am a little bit intoxicated so I am going to focus on the current and I will update on the past later.

I have to first say that I am a little intoxicated so what I write may not make a lot of sense but that is okay my goal has never been to be a profound thinker with writings that lead to “a ha ” moments. I have recently found that life deals us each a different hand of cards and that even though we think we have the right answers for others that is in fact not always the case. I am currently in CO and finding that no matter how long you have known a person you can never really know who they are. I have discovered that I am quick to pass judgement in order to avoid facing my own flaws. Through a great friend I have been guided to a new book that is already changing my life. I will share more once I am sober and once I am ready to go into more detail. I only wanted to post to say that New Years is a great time to make plans for changes but I am finding that any day is actually just as good to start any new future. I will be back soon to update my story but for nwo I am finding who I am.