Today we celebrated my oldest childs birthday and he has hit the big 13  and let me tell you it was a wonderfully sad moment for me. I have to say that I have one of the best teen age boys I could ever ask for but I am not ready for him to grow up yet. We decided it was time to let him have a lap top to be able to do his homework and get on his website for card trading and what ever else he does on the computer. We do already have an understanding that I will check the computer history and websites he visits and have access to emails. There is privacy but on a limited basis. I am a trusting parent but not a stupid one. It was a nice celebration with a friend of ours and their family. We will be doing the party with my sons friends in a week or two. Its wonderful to being a mom and sad at the same time.

My BF who is also a married mother decided that it was time for a girls weekend without any little people or hubbies to join. On Friday we climbed into her new car and headed down the road with the radio blaring and our excitement peaked. We arrived at my sisters house around dinner and headed down to a Vegan restaurant for some food outside of our normal dining habits. I was pleasantly surprised to find that I loved it. It tasted just like a slab of steak would even though it was a substitution for a “normal” philly cheese steak. The waitress proceeded to hit on myself and my BF which was funny but flattering… I still got it even after three kids. After dinner we headed back to the house and played Halo for a while and then crashed so we would be rested for the next day.

Once we woke up we headed up to an area of shops that my sister loves to go to but that was after we had breakfest at Egg and Saucer. We saw everything from childrens toys to tiaras. It was a beautiful day even though there was overcast. Once we finished shopping we picked up the freshly cleaned nogs (nephew dogs) and headed back home for some dinner.  Now it was time for the ladies to get decked out in all of our hottness and D to become our token man of the night and head to the club. We had fun laughing at people, dancing, drinking, and dealing with idiot guys who think they have what you are looking for. On the Max heading home we did get to meet Mr I through my saliva soaked pot at you while trying to tell an epic story of his night that seems to resemble the story of Lord of the Rings. It was a night filled with humor, bonding, and memories. I had a wonderful time and it was nice to get away for some r&r with my girls.

I was glad to get home to the kids and the hubby but today I feel like shit… congestion and soar body is so much fun…. I will post some pix of the weekend later… but for now I am off to bed.

My mother in law just left yesterday and I was sad to see her leave but glad to get the awkward feelings out of my home. You see months ago I stopped talking to her daughter… not because of a fight or anything that she specifically knows about I just decided that it was time to let go of a relationship that was not healthy for me. Since I stopped speaking to my sister in law things have been weird. Not just for me but for my husband as well which makes me heartbroken. I wanted to have his mother come out here and eat up the time she had with us with laughter and memories and just good company but instead I felt like she was uncomfortable, or on edge which then put me on edge. I found myself replaying every conversation I had with her in my head to make sure I did not say anything wrong,  also found myself going out of my way to find ways for her to hang out with the kids so she would not feel I was keeping them from her. The uneasyness of the house was even picked up on by my daughter so she hung very close to my leg and the comfort of mommy. Its all really sad that people allow silence to break apart good families… the silence of not speaking up, not dealing with problems, or even telling someone to shut up and quit being so self centered. It was a nice visit but I won’t expect another for a while…. I just wish things were different